Return to Cardiff 1 March 2008

St David's Day......... time to plan the trip to Cardiff next week....... mixed feelings..... going back infrequently.....feelings always mixed during my time there..... still stuck a bit with two issues ....my mother's death and the weird experience of sudden bereavement, guilt and a lot of unsaid things...... and the time I lived there as a closet case and a fairly guilty gay scene.... fumbled encounters in dark corners or morris minis when the gear stick came into its own as as a sex toy......a few ghosts still linger but it feels like they are friendly ones......... I have a different reason to go ...... to visit the Butetown History Centre... looking forward to meeting Michael Flynn who looks after it ...... his voice is warm and welcoming on the phone.... like rich honey flowing from an upended spoon..........I have a good feeling about the research.......... can't wait to see those photos and hear the voices telling me about their lives........